Trying to cherish every momentof today because life is all about making memories that last.

Profile im Alfieza Hyperqid . super friendly and uber noisy . :D a year older on every 15Oct . im somehow like a boss . I ♥ to go missing ! wahaha . Please do not remove the credits. Thanks(: Designer: Fly.away Basecodes: Glamouresque.

Monday, May 17, 2010 2:39 AM IM TOTALLY FEELING ALL AFRAID AT THE MOMENT! let me tell u guys smtg. on Sat, something mysterious happened. i've NEVER EVER button my back pockets but on that day, right after i took a packet of tissue and wanted to keep it back, my pants back pocket suddenly was buttoned. i swear it was odd. okay, skip that. yesterday, Sunday, 16May2010, was my third day menses. in the morning, received a bad news. mum woke me up to tell me that my Mak Long passed away. and since it was my mum's family, i HAD to go. but u know, they said kalo dtg kotor, takmo g kubur/ziarah org meninggal, etc but MUM will never understand that when it comes to her family although i've told her that. so dad woke me up. mum already left and IB went straight frm work. in the vehicle while on the way there, i told dad that my body is not clean. and since our plc is near the cemetry, usually we follow the crowd to the cemetry but since my body is not clean, dad told me to not go upstairs to visit and just sit under the blk. so when we reached our destination, i just stayed under the blk with my relatives. when the body was brought down to the first storey, i read the prayers too with the others. most in the crowd is following the body to the mosque then they gonna head down to cemetry. dad, thinking of my condition and doesnt want anything to happen to me, we head down to eat at Marsiling. after eating while otw hm, i felt giddy. reached home, i called up a friend saying sorry for not being able to turn up for work with her, etc. after i hang up, i went flat. HAD A NIGHTMARE! i woke up, sweating terribly, although the fan were switched on and it was raining. iye la, kalo hujan kan slalu berangin. berangin berangin tetap berpeluh rabak. took a shower, took a look at my body in the mirror, HAIYO! rabak pe! then when i were going to wear my clothes in my room, took a look at the mirror again and the marks were gone. went out to eat with a friend. i ate like never before. tell me, after a meal of chicken noodle, i ate 5donuts straight. for someone like me, i dont eat much u see. reached home, told dad abt nightmare and the marks, etc. then at midnight, when i tried to msg gf, my phn suddenly went berserk. and my body is feeling all hot. my bulu roma ternaik. called up my colleague, she said she asked a makcik at work whether someone whose having menses can go visiting and makcik said cannot. so yeah. timecheck: 3:02am. still feeling all hot at the back. i saw hairs on the bed. its raining heavily. im turning on the surah-surah loudly. but at times, the speakers suddenly went crazy. i feel like my eyes are different. apart frm the rain, some sounds are so irritating. i dont know what and i dont wana know what. i wana go toilet but im afraid. im scratching here and there. and im afraid to look back bcoz my mirror is in the back. damn it! im afraid! colleague said maybe something followed me home like wtf! i want someone to send me home later after soccer! damn! ps: in the afternoon, IB said, "naik jek la. ape nk takot? penakot!" (when he doesnt know im not clean) then when i told dad abt the nigthmare, he said, "alah mimpi jek. yg ko terikot2 buat pe?" i mean, kalo itu mimpi, kenape ader marks like it just happened awhile ago? ni jantan bobal mcm paham sia. Labels: only i know best.