Just As I Was

2011-06-12T02:50:00.001+08:00

hellohellohello! it's been soooo frickin long since i last post something down here. wana know what? i typed blogspot.com to login here but search failed. i went the hard way by google then blogspot sign in and was sad when i actually forgot my password. hahaha! luckily im using girlgirl's lappy and she saved the password. HAHAHA! so currently, i dont even know my own password. sad or what?

anw, life been normal. the usual ups and downs. currently im feeling kinda down i guess. coz my pillar of strength, my baby and girlgirl, is out of town. even IB is out of town. w/o him around, the house sounds so quiet. but i think im like frickin lucky la. girlgirl said she bought for me stuff totalling up to 9items. haha!

yesterday, 11June2011, was one of my close friend back in sec school's engagement. this is her first boyfriend and alhamdulilah now engaged. :) although i was busy being the unprofessional photographer, how i wished arwah kecik was there to witness my friend's engagement. back in sec skul days, we both would team up to disturb her. and today, 12June2011, its arwah kecik's 40days.

kecik, dgn kau tiada disisi, hasratku sudah terhenti. niat ku untuk mencari pengganti sudah tiada lagi. kau la satu2 nye harapan. i seriously miss u. i miss us chatting at night back in sec skul days. our secrets. i miss bumping into u. i miss hearing u sing. and i miss random texts from u. i miss that smile which u always put on ur face. u're the kinda guy that is hard to replace. u make a difference in alot of ppl's life. kesian abg boy. dier la yg paling rapat ngan ko. tanpa ko, dier mcm da tak berdaya nak buat ape2. and everytime PSS ader bende, ur name will always stuck in my head. kalo dulu nak ckp aku rindu and sayang ko mc pelik, now im gonna say; imy handsome boy. visit u soon alright. al-fateha.

i miss NUR SITI SYAFIQAH! I MISS KARISMA INDAH! and i'll always miss u, Fir. maybe its true. when someone is away from u, only then u'll notice how much u miss them and how dear they are to u.

and to once a close friend; if only u notice, i dont even bother much about u now. when u cry right infront of my eyes, i dont even ask. is that an improvement on my part? or were u wanting me to comfort u? HAHA!

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2011-04-05T23:49:00.003+08:00

it's been sooooooo long that i last blogged! almost 2 months!

anyway, life's not been good to me these past few months, but i've managed to pull it through. i hope i'll still have abit of courage left in me to continue my journey, insyaAllah.

anyway, i can't wait for my short getaway this weekend! will be going with GG to Pahang to meet Baby! i miss her so much! i seriously can feel lonely without her presence. Baby! cpat balik kay? boleh teman mama lunch kat her workplace! ;D

i think i need to go away from this hectic country for awhile and clear my mind. it's been so hazy here and i'm not loving it! but with GG and Baby by my side, insyaAllah i'll have the strength to never give up in life.

okay i'm done for now. will be back in a day or two, a week or so, a month or not. HAHA!

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2011-02-23T14:19:00.001+08:00

she's currently at work, and i miss her.. so much ):

2010-11-19T10:59:00.003+08:00

when's the last time i blogged? 05Nov. wow, that's.. long. sorry for i've not been updating because 1) i'm lazy as i've always mentioned, and 2) there's nothing interesting to blog about.

anw, yesterday was Hari Raya Haji. one sentence; it had a bad start. i was easily irritated, and GG kept texting me, which irritates me more. buuuuut, i know she's just being concern. and i guess she's bored cos i dint text her.

GG's sleeping over today, wheee~ it's fun to have a companion to sleep with. HAHA! hmm, things with GG wasn't good this month, but it's going abit better for now. let's just wait if she's gna start her bad habit again. if she does, then that's it. i'm not gna stay even for another second. she perangai pathetic. HAHA!

actually, i'm kinda sleeping now. so it's not really possible to be blogging right? soooo.. just be smart and guess who's the one actually blogging (;

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid??
HAHA (;

2010-11-05T01:20:00.003+08:00

on the 2nd November, i went to Universal Studio with girlgirl. it was fuuuuun, but i was sick on that day. girlgirl wanted to cancel the plan because i was sick, but i insisted for we had planned it since a week ago and i don't wna disappoint her. my leg was in a jellyfish state, so i got tired easily from all the walking in USS. but it was worth the fun.

but the boring part was, we finished all the rides in 3hours. we went at 10am. and by 1.30pm, we're done! and we have a movie booked at 7pm! and i kept whining about how much more i could have slept at home! anw, we played some other rides again and again (:

we went smoke free! wheeee~ and girlgirl has not been smoking for few days before that cos she was sick. WOW. and now it's my turn. she's not letting me smoke. HAHA! but i think i'm feeling better now, and i've asked her.. and she said it's okay for me to smoke tomorrow. YEAH!

so anw, back to 2nd November, we went off from USS at 6pm and went off to Vivo City to catch our movie. the two of us fell asleep. HAHAHA! it was worth the $15 i paid. i slept well! HAHAHA! after movie, we went everywhere to find dinner. we settled down at Burger King (: BEST!

reached home, by 12am (:

psst, i've been checking facebook on a regular basis. like, WOW right? HAHA! my personal secret (;

i think that's all for tonight. a short post because i'm lazy like that. HAHAHA! see you guys around.

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

21st bday!

2010-10-17T05:03:00.003+08:00

continuation from first post!

blog aku giler! aku nk taruk video and edit words aku, mesti ader jek yg ilang. aku give up! so kalo english tak btol tu, paham2 jek la ye. ni lagi satu video nk taruk tapi puas hati taruk kat new post senang ckit idop dari aku asyik2 ilang bende and kene tulis balek! so yeah! enjoyyy~

my 21st bday!

2010-10-17T02:50:00.015+08:00

Friday, 15October2010

girlgirl gave me a surprise at my corridor with candles lit 21♥ and a brownie cake. it was such a pleasant surprise. somehow, i knew she'd do it. if anyone were to ask me how i felt, of course i would say that im honoured. i mean, to travel from loyang to jurong. thats a sacrifice man. and although ppl may think that im kindled with joy coz of the surprise and that it would be a happy night, the start of my 21st bday wasnt a good one buuuuttt we talked and things got the better of us both. :)
she kept telling me that she made a reservation in a restaurant in JB but i knew that we're gonna meet ppl up and i just know who it might be coz the both of them had a slip of their tongue. HAHAHA! and when we reached JB, there they were: Eerah and Sakina.

we ate and bowled there. funfun! u just have to look at those Mlysians bowl. they simply threw their ball. i dont know how to explain it. but yeah. and there's this girl in black. she's such an attention-seeker. she tries to attract guys near the counter. oh, our lane is soooo near to the counter. and get this straight! dont go bowling in Mlysia. their seats are so close to each other that when there's plenty of ppl, it gets cramped! so yeah! that's gonna be my first and my last bowling experience there. but nevertheless, thanks to the three of them. ;D

when we were about to leave, there's a new group of kids beside our lane. this girl in blue keeps looking at me as if trying to figure out if im a male or a female. HAHAHA! aaaaaaaaaand whenever someone(usually guys) tries to talk to them three, i'll talk back. heh!

fast forward! took bus back to wdlds. and when we went up the escalator, i felt ecstatic to see my two kids that i gave chase but i saw the others too. my two daughter-in-law and Sky! i was speechless to say anything. all i could do was to hug them three. i thought that maybe my baby didnt remember abt me but when we talked, she said she remember all the while and her ppd was running low and she wanted to make it a surprise! seriously, thanks girlgirl for the last surprise of the day! i didnt see that coming instead of the other two. ;)

later in the night, eka's relative sent us off. we board the lorry. me, girlgirl, Eerah and Sakina sat at the back of the lorry. i had fun in the lorry making so much noise. girlgirl joined me and the other two kept laughing at we both. but hellyeah! it was my night! im fucking 21! woooohooo~
oh yeah!

to end it all, i really had a blast. the last surprise with my two kids around was unexpectedly awesome! i mean, one of them, we had a rough moment few weeks back and the other one didnt wished me. so yeah. I FELT ELATED! THANKS FOR WISHING AND SPENDING UR PRECIOUS TIME WITH ME! SAYANG KORANG! weeeee~

gg with letter of apology. haha.

2010-10-05T04:18:00.003+08:00

me and that girl above in the pic are still awake. nak tau what? she sent resume to a company but didnt attached a resume to it. funny oi! blom start keje but nk tulis letter of apology. hahaha!

blog have been dusty! hahaha! too busy! chey! mcm paham jek aku ni. anw, next wk bday saye! weee~ legally 21. da tua but still young at heart. :D

bday wish saye dari dulu sampai skrg tak pernah tercapai. sedih oi. ish! nvm, thats abt it then. take care readers. :)

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MOOOOOOOOOOORNING ANW! :D :D :D

2010-09-17T06:41:00.002+08:00

^ Hari Raya is still ongoing. i miss the times when we were younger. i love u BB. i miss u so damn much.

anw, i hope its not too late to wish u readers a Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. :)

Hari Raya was okay but i dont feel the excitement anymore like how it used to be when we were whole. hmmm. but oh wells, i did seek forgiveness from each one of my family members. :)

i think me and GG got too much money in our wallet/purse/pocket/hand that we kept on going cinemas to watch a movie. heh! but what i know is, mine gonna stop flowing at the end of this week. hopefully. :)

oh, im blogging now coz i cant sleep a wink although i tried. went FB but nothing attracts me much. then played Coin Dozer(finally da download. weeee~) but i have to keep on waiting coz i kept on losing coins. hmmm.

timecheck: 06:52am

and i have to leave home at around 9am? im going for a short getaway, out of town. weeee~ hmmm. if i sleep now, it just means that i wont be able to wake up on time. and that would cost time wastage. know what? this past few days, i've been learning and coping well in time management. what i meant is, im not much of a STARKARAT anymore. still progressing. heh!

somehow somewhere, i miss my sec sch friends. heh! and i miss member swine, gay partner and that future accountant. :(
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anw, in my general point of view, if i were to see a beloved person behaving intimately with a certain someone, of course i wouldnt be feeling normal. but knowing that that beloved person love u with all her heart and that she proves to u that she loves u, trust me, she wont let u go for no reason.

i dont believe in seeing-is-believing coz i think its all crap. a pic is just a pic. actions? how sure are u that they mean much more? i hugged and kissed certain girls. do my/their actions mean much more too?

i wonder and wonder and wonder.

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2010-08-27T03:08:00.003+08:00

^ thanks for spending the day and night with me. helping DS and me out. ur friends trust me easily. do u?

YES!

nana.

2010-08-21T01:51:00.004+08:00

my dear *insertname*, i've NEVER hated u. HATE is a strong word. i DISLIKE that at times u lie to me. thats all. u WERE in every bits and pieces of me. if u were such a hassle, i wouldnt asked u along to join my family when we're having dinner or when we're going overseas. if being there for u is troubling me too much, i can decide to not be there for u but i wanted to. thats out of my own will, my dear. so yeah, u didnt forced me to, right?

i appreciate all the things that u've done for me when we were still close. i wana thank u for all the time u cooked for me in the middle of the night when i felt hungry, all the time u accompanied me when i couldnt slp and making me the first in mind(back then) when u needed someone to slp by ur side. only we know how strong our bond was when we were close. maybe one day we'll be close like we used to? rmbr me saying that even if im owned by someone, i'll still be there for u when u need me? im sticking to that. so if ever u were to come back, i'll be there for u like an elder sibling would for her lil sister. im ur guardian rmbr? and hey, im sorry! and im still here my dear and im hoping u're doing fine out there. ;)

lots of love,
ur once an S11! ;)

ps: australia?

2010-08-15T19:08:00.008+08:00

^ ur very own prettyboy! :D
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on Thursday, 12Aug2010, supposedly me, gay partner and a straight guy friend had to meet up coz its been two years since me and gay partner last met him up but they forgot all abt it and planned to meet up on Friday but i had plans to break-fast at RC. break-fast la sgt. aku tak puase. hahaha!

oh, someone asked me out to JB but since i had plans, i told her to go on other days and few hrs later, i saw her at RC and she claimed that she took an OFF day for me. kirekan sweet la gitu. I DONT KNOW WHY THE HELL SHE NEED TO KEEP ON LYING TO ME! KALO SKRG NAK TIPU, KALO CERTAIN TIME AKU PERCAYE TU, PSL TAKDE BUKTI. TAPI DULUDULU YG KO NK G BOHONG KAT AKU WHEN IM LIVING UNDER THE SAME ROOF AS U FOR WHAT? TAK MASOK AKAL! AAAAAAAAAAAAND, MAYBE HER GF WAS JEALOUS OR SMTG? SAMPAI TAK TAU NK SALAM. AKU TAU LA KO ADER DARAH CINE, SO WHAT? KO 100% KAFIR KE?

okay, get back to story. eh wait, cut in for awhile! been sometime i ate cempedak! niceeeeeeee! :D confirmconfirm if iftar kat RC, aku beli cempedak punye! :D

now get back to story. soooo... the three of us met up yesterday, Saturday, but gay partner asked a gay friend(whom girlgirl said he should be straight coz he's hot) along to join us and i brought girlgirl! :) only my straight guy friend yg no partner and nak tau what? girlgirl wore DRESS! i likeeeee!

senang kate, from jumpe 3 person, it became 5 then add 2 more then 4 more with a baby. haaaa~ berlambak oi! tapi aku tetap setia pade yg 4 before all the others came along somehow somewhere. andand my hot gay friend said im actually pretty. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand, si girlgirl setuju sgtsgt! ish! stop it eh korg! HAHA! and the three guys said she looks nice in dress! tapi dier paiseh! apeape jek tau dektu. and my two gayboys said we looked sweet together. again, apeape jek tau diorg!

aaaaaaaaaaand, tomorrow I CAN FAST! woot woot! gerek pe! haha. first day fasting jek nak iftar kat luar. tuesday going Geylang! hoping girlgirl would pass her TP on Tuesday! :) bole dpt new hp dari daddy! :)

i guess thats all for today. tak sabar nak Hari Raya Puasa coz nak mkn Honey Cornflakes! tak sabar for Hari Raya Haji coz nak dpt anak sedara! weeee~

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

"Like what a large tree does for a lumberjack with a sharp axe; I have fallen hard for u girl. ;D"

2010-08-04T01:25:00.002+08:00

02Aug2010 was quite a bad day. was hoping that 03Aug2010 would be great but the start of the day became bad when someone asked me a random qn. and one by one, the truth came out. im sorry to make u feel that way. i love u my dear. i really do. 04Aug2010, it was already bad. toilettoilettoilet! ish! gonna stay hm later onwards. BB's getting engaged this Sunday. :) i miss BB!

dearest Dinda, i need u. i hope u're watching me from above.

hey GG, check out ur blog. :)

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2010-07-26T15:41:00.004+08:00

in some other ppl's eyes, there's always a great painful disguise. disguise that dressed their lonely heart with devastating cuts that ever hurt. their smiles turned into sobs, laughter into screams and joys into sorrows. but no matter what caused their pains, they always move forward as they wipe their tears; for in every beat of a lonely heart, there is hope that lights the path. ;) thanks my dearest girlgirl for all the time u poured ur love for me, for all the time spent listening to my worries and my fears, for all the time u were there to entertain my random-ness, for all the time u're here just for me.

i may not see u now and i may not say that i miss u and i love u much but no matter what, i wana make memories that can last. ;)

BK, U'RE MISSED TOO! :D

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

waste of time!

2010-07-19T21:51:00.004+08:00

lets talk abt yesterday. SUPPOSEDLY, i had a street soccer competition going on at Teck Whye area. aku yg tinggal jauh can sampai earlier then diorg yg tinggal dekat. da gitu takpe. bgn siang seh! and checkcheck, the CC was like knnbccb! the girls category got cancelled coz all the other girls team back out coz THEY WERE FROM JC AND THEY GOT AN NFL GOING ON WHICH LEFT ONLY ONE TEAM which consists of me and my teammates. MCM TAIK KAN DIORG! SATU TEAM JEK PON TAK MAMPU NAK KOL TO TELL US ITS CANCELLED! SIASIA SIOL BGN PAGI2 BUTA! ON A SUNDAY LAGI! and since it was 8plus am and the office at CC opens at 9:30am, the whole lot of us just kicked balls aaaaaaaaand, kecoh okay! bola asyik2 'out of the ring'.

and after we're done kicking, went down to the office and took back our money! sesungguhnye i can get myself fired up if they memekak. heh! THEEEEEEEEN, ITS HOTCAKE TIME! WEEE~

after we're done eating, slacked around Teck Whye. it was a rainy day and lots of things happened. i blame the soccer competition for something which i think wouldnt have happened if the competition was still on. what a waste!

senang kate, 18July2010 was a rainy day, a very baaaad day, a sad day, an emotional day AAAAAND PEOPLE FELL SICK BCOZ OF IT.

as for today, I STAYED HOME. SUSAH DATANG KAN? when im sick, i didnt even stay home. now when im feeling better and someone got sick, i stayed home. im sweet, i know. :)

anw, life taught me that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction. :) get it?

till next time, take care readers. dont play in the rain or u'll regret getting sick. ;)

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2010-07-16T01:04:00.006+08:00

I'M SICK AT THE MOMENT!
TAK SUKE TAK SUKE TAK SUUKKEEEEERRRR :(
ISH, I WENT TO THE DOCTOR ALREADY BUT THERE'S NO DIFFERENCE! MCIAM &#%#^*!!
PUAS HATI TAK PERGI. PFFT.

I HAVE A FRIEND, AND SHE'S CRAZY! HEH.

THIS SUNDAY, THERE'S STREET SOCCER WITH MY FRIENDS. IT'S SO EARLY IN THE MORNING AND I HOPE I CAN WAKE UP (: HEH. BUT CONFIRMCONFIRM I'LL BE LATE ;D HEE. BIASE JGAKKK. KATE ALFIEZA~ HAHAHAHA!

OKAY IT'S LATE AND I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR JOGGING WITH SOMEONE ;D GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.

SELAMAT MALAM, MIMPI INDAH, MIMPI ALFIEZA ♥

nightmare!

2010-06-30T09:21:00.004+08:00

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! SPAIN WON PORTUGAL 1-0! *smiles widely*
sorry. world cup season la. heh!

wana know what? after the soccer match, i had to keep rolling all over my bed to get the right position and finally, walaaa, able to slp. :) however, i woke up one hour later. like wtf kan? all bcoz of a nightmare which was like super real. and due to the fact that i was uber afraid, i decided not to slp. heh! so now, my eyebags are visible and ugly! heh!

oh, about one hour after i stayed awake, a friend insisted that i call her up as she was worried abt me. degil tau bdk ni! org da suro dier g tdo, dier tknk. padahal kene klua pagi2. abih end up, when we hang up the phn, she went to slp and now she's late. haiyoooo~

that one, nevermind. then there's this one girl. she's known as gf. she told me to meet her at CCK at 10am and so, at 9am i gave her wake up call. ini bdk nmpk sah tdo mati. tepn punye tepn, tak angkat angkat. bnyk dier punye, kalo merayap bole bgn pagi. kalo keje takle. in the nick of time when i wanted to hang up, she answered her call. fuuuh! slamat! kalo saye tak tepn, confirm she nvr wake up. heh! so end up, meeting at 1030 and im still here blogging. ape tak nye. da dpt complain yg blog saye da dusty. hmmm. and we're gonna go dating and meet friends later in the afternoon. :) dating la sgt. HAHA! she wana board on 190 to City Hall. gf gf, bf awak nak sleep on ur shoulders bole? nk drool on ur chest bole? HAHAHA! KIDDING!

imagine if im going Powerhouse accompanying my buddy today, confirmconfirm i'll be physically tired to even do anything. oh, speaking of tired, i need someone to crack my back very badly. BABY! TOLONG PAPA! haha.

i want someone to dodoi me tonight can? HAHAHA! i think im still gonna be afraid to fall aslp. heh! im weird, i know. someone pls cuddle me tonight? KAKAK AKU DA KAWIN! DA TAK TINGGAL SINI. DA TAKLE LOVINGLOVING. sape agaknye yg sudi eh? MAK BAPAK AKU TAK BAGI AKU TDO NGAN DIORG! :( ish, LONER!

okay. i think thats all for now. da lmbt ni. haha. next time i'll TRY MY BEST to update. heh! tapi mcm kene tunggu lame2 la. if i dont update, some kind souls will surely help to update it. :)

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

2010-06-28T01:27:00.005+08:00

saya da 9 hari straight jumpe awak.
BORING~

hahahaaha, joking (:
confirm awak jelak tengok muke saya kan? hahaha!
takpe, cepat go find someone to sit in your heart k (:
i'll let you go (: (: heeeeee.

awak pemalas, blog da berabuk! grr.
takpe saya goodgirl. saya blog kan.

abcdefghi, jklm, nopqrstuvwx, yz, i love you.
you are singing this song now (: hehehhh!

k da. saya nak talk to awak (:
goodnight.
selamat malam, mimpi indah ♥

2010-06-22T02:46:00.005+08:00

i like you because..
- you talk to me every night (:
- you trust me to blog for you.
- you entertain me with funny events that happened to you.
- you're making me laugh now as i blog and talk to you (:
and manymore ;D

BUT YOU ARE VERY DEGIL!
veryveryveryveryvery (:

xoxo, you know who i am ;D

just an update.

2010-05-29T04:30:00.016+08:00

^ Happy Birthday to u, SS! I WANT MY FERRERO ROCHER! haha.
^ member swine is coming down to watch me play soccer on 5th June. =D
^ despite ppl saying how bad she is, im always there.
^ FINALLY baby and papa met up. maybe we may meet again, soon.
^ buddy is out of town. confirm she miss me. HAHA! PERASAN JUBS!
^ whatever happens, im gonna be by ur side, here and forever, bestfriend.

anw, i find that www.formspring.me is very interesting and i feel like making myself a member but then again, i wonder if anyone would even ask me questions. should i or should i not be a member? hmmm.

u know, when i had the intention of doing good, things wont turn right. damn it! so anw, i was asked to go hm earlier on when i went to work. but thats a good thing i guess, coz i had family dinner and i dont have to stress out on 20June2010 but its sucks that i have to scrimp and save coz im not getting my pay next wk. FUCK ALL THE NEWCOMERS! NEW SUPERVISOR, NEW STAFF, ETC. I WANT MY COLLEAGUES BACK! ALL QUIT ALREADY! ISH! FUCKING HATE THE SITUATION NOW. DAMN THOSE MATE SEPETS!

oh, i merajok to go work that i dont think i wana go work later. tomorrow baru go work. i guess im going to watch MOVIE now. otak ni taknak mati kejap. ish!

scared!

2010-05-17T02:39:00.003+08:00

IM TOTALLY FEELING ALL AFRAID AT THE MOMENT!

let me tell u guys smtg. on Sat, something mysterious happened. i've NEVER EVER button my back pockets but on that day, right after i took a packet of tissue and wanted to keep it back, my pants back pocket suddenly was buttoned. i swear it was odd. okay, skip that.

yesterday, Sunday, 16May2010, was my third day menses. in the morning, received a bad news. mum woke me up to tell me that my Mak Long passed away. and since it was my mum's family, i HAD to go. but u know, they said kalo dtg kotor, takmo g kubur/ziarah org meninggal, etc but MUM will never understand that when it comes to her family although i've told her that.

so dad woke me up. mum already left and IB went straight frm work. in the vehicle while on the way there, i told dad that my body is not clean. and since our plc is near the cemetry, usually we follow the crowd to the cemetry but since my body is not clean, dad told me to not go upstairs to visit and just sit under the blk. so when we reached our destination, i just stayed under the blk with my relatives. when the body was brought down to the first storey, i read the prayers too with the others.

most in the crowd is following the body to the mosque then they gonna head down to cemetry. dad, thinking of my condition and doesnt want anything to happen to me, we head down to eat at Marsiling. after eating while otw hm, i felt giddy.

reached home, i called up a friend saying sorry for not being able to turn up for work with her, etc. after i hang up, i went flat. HAD A NIGHTMARE! i woke up, sweating terribly, although the fan were switched on and it was raining. iye la, kalo hujan kan slalu berangin. berangin berangin tetap berpeluh rabak. took a shower, took a look at my body in the mirror, HAIYO! rabak pe! then when i were going to wear my clothes in my room, took a look at the mirror again and the marks were gone.

went out to eat with a friend. i ate like never before. tell me, after a meal of chicken noodle, i ate 5donuts straight. for someone like me, i dont eat much u see.

reached home, told dad abt nightmare and the marks, etc. then at midnight, when i tried to msg gf, my phn suddenly went berserk. and my body is feeling all hot. my bulu roma ternaik. called up my colleague, she said she asked a makcik at work whether someone whose having menses can go visiting and makcik said cannot. so yeah.

timecheck: 3:02am.

still feeling all hot at the back. i saw hairs on the bed. its raining heavily. im turning on the surah-surah loudly. but at times, the speakers suddenly went crazy. i feel like my eyes are different. apart frm the rain, some sounds are so irritating. i dont know what and i dont wana know what. i wana go toilet but im afraid. im scratching here and there. and im afraid to look back bcoz my mirror is in the back. damn it! im afraid! colleague said maybe something followed me home like wtf! i want someone to send me home later after soccer! damn!

ps: in the afternoon, IB said, "naik jek la. ape nk takot? penakot!" (when he doesnt know im not clean) then when i told dad abt the nigthmare, he said, "alah mimpi jek. yg ko terikot2 buat pe?" i mean, kalo itu mimpi, kenape ader marks like it just happened awhile ago? ni jantan bobal mcm paham sia.

adeq!

2010-05-11T03:41:00.004+08:00

yet again, its the 11th. last wk Friday when i went out with friends, i asked one friend if we're meeting up today and the respond i got was...............................

i know that i've been somehow bad coz when anyone talks abt my friend, i will rub it in even more. its like i dont care anymore when actually i still do but what can i do? i even feel like im at a loss of words when im with u.

all i can say now is, time have changed. EVERYONE CHANGED. im sure i wont get a single respond from u but im sure u read the text i sent to u. oh well, thats life. im sad now, where are u? if i were to get into an accident later, will u meet me? or if i were to suddenly be a rich person later, will u only then appear out of nowhere? shit! i hate random-ing when im sad. i can come out with alot of questions in mind. damn it!

u know, i just have to believe in 'In Order To Gain Something, U Have To Lose Something' coz as i can see now, im losing one but i gained another. it have always been this way. it sucks! and since i have always been having trouble slping, and NOW that i bumped into old friends, it generally means that i could get stocks easily. i wanted to ask my friend for slping pills but then the 'gained another' didnt want me to. hmmm. but i've been drinking alot and cabbing here and there that im left with only 10bucks in my wallet. haizz.

anw, my Mak Long got some sickness and im visiting her later today. so in total, i've not been to work for A WEEK! great! just great! the whole wk with not much slp, too much drink, too much ciggies and too much problems! i guess im gonna work on Wednesday(hoping that i could get my 130bucks which the company still owes me when i come to work) till Sun/Mon. thought of going Supperclub on Saturday but its better to earn cash right? Tuesday getting pay. =) Wednesday going Powerhouse. BOOZE ON BABY! BOOZE ON! the irritating thing abt drinking when u're down IS THAT U WONT GET HIGH AT ALL.

ps: although i met my friend last Sat, im missing my friend now eventhough i dont show it, eventhough i act as if i dont bother, even if my friend is not missing me. INI LA CURAHAN DARI HATI KECIL KU.

2nd day stewarding.

2010-04-27T01:55:00.006+08:00

i just reached home and i just had to blog abt yesterday. hahaha.

it was my second day of work. yes, i took a very looong break. my dad's company mah. heh! me and my friend reached work by 4pm but we both start work at 7pm. gerek kan? hahaha. waited for her friends for a veery long time. rmbr the butch frm my previous post? while waiting for my friend's friends, ruper2nye her friends was with the butch and the girl. so the six of us walked to the cafe. the butch walked beside me. hmmm. i told her that the girl im working with is my close friend and not my partner. so yeah. hmmm.

blablabla. while working with my friend, my friend told me that while we were sitting at the cafe, the butch winked at her and eye contact towards me. hmmm. blablabla.

in the evening while someone called me up, she asked for my whereabouts and i told her im at home. theeen, i told her im at work. i asked my friend if she wana talk to someone and vice versa but they both said they dont want but i still insisted since they knew one another. then came to mind, an idea. i told my friend to tell someone that we are together. HAHAHA! the respond? nvm, its just between us three. someone didnt know that my friend heard what she said. HAHAHA! but i had to put it on loudspeaker coz i want my friend to witness everything. heh! after we hang up the phn, me and my friend wanted to call the girl of my friend's life to just prank that me and my friend are a couple bcoz we just wana hear the respond. heh! but work came in.

workworkwork. me working inside will definitely be faster than anyone else. our work was suppose to end at 12:45am but we done it all by 11:30pm. gerek kan. at 11:30pm, called up friends and prank them saying me and my friend are a couple. HAHAHA! we even called my girlfriend up. so that was the first time girlfriend and my friend talked on the phn. they dont even know each other in person. but it was fun. heh! oh, my friend's girl of her life's respond was somewhat showing that she was jealous. hahaha. kecoh!

thenthen when me and my friend was on the way to take our bag, the butch was at a corner, smoking. the butch asked if we're going off and my friend answered her while i just smiled but u know what? the butch hold my hand. hmmm. and later said, "alamak! mataer kat sebelah ar." then i just smiled and hugged my friend. blablabla. when we wana sign out frm work, my friend's friends, butches, asked if me and my friend are together. we said we're not a couple. my friend said that im her bestfriend. hmmm. at that moment, i was wearing specs and my friend wore her specs and her friends said me and my friend suits each other. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! esp when we both wore our specs and that we really are compatible. HAHAHAHAHA! then my friend told them abt me and blablabla, then only they believe that me and my friend are just friends. her friend lagi mcm siak, asked me to 'push' the girl to her and confidently told me that if she got to know the girl, the girl would definitely want her. HAHAHA! IN YOUR FACE! then after my friend's friends left, the butch came over. i was reading my msges but i saw the butch doing an eye contact with my friend. dont know what its all about and suddenly my friend showed the butch the msg whereby my friend sent to the girl of her life for the prank, 'im with Fieza la. officially' and then the butch looked at me and i just smiled. she was kinda sad, i think.

when the vehicle i took left the workplc, i was trying to find my friend but i saw the butch instead and the butch was looking directly at me. and then when i msged her asking her if she really believe if me and my friend are together, MEMBER TAK REPLY LA SEH! HAHAHAHAHA! padahal i already told her that me and my friend are close friends. maybe bcoz my close friend is a butch and i looked like a girl and we're uber close, she really bought what my friend said. heh! how close am i and my close friend? SHE KNOWS WHAT MOST DOESNT KNOW. she's like member swine. =) (i miss u) and i do hug her while at work. maybe thats why ppl see us as an item. PATHETIC HUMAN BEINGS! heh!

what a day! oh, me and my friend punye EVIL mcm siak. mcm siak pon, we're sweet. we tried our best to cheer girlfriend up. =) we even sang for her! HAHAHA! baek kan? heh! itu la when u really got nothing to do. mkn gaji buta but still end work fast. mesti la, kate Alfieza Hyperqid. cheydebah!

although im sharing all the good stuff, there are parts of my life which isnt doing great. but oh well, thats life. and buat ape nk share citer sedih2 kan? heh!
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ps: yes, u hurt me and yes, i was mad at u but well, thats part of friendship and im not going to let that ruin ours. the start of ours was great, never am i going to let it end. u claimed to have ur reasons for not picking up my calls and replying my texts. im trying my best to see that what u did was for the best. maybe by doing that, u thought u wouldnt hurt me but my dear, by avoiding me over a very small issue is always a mistake. u know me, its alright with me if u have some difficulties. u can just tell me abt it, i wouldnt mind. and my dear, why were u selfish with me? i dont know. only u have the answer to all of that. u know, u're one of those ppl who matters in my life. i seem to know u well but u, on the other hand, seems like u didnt know me well enough. maybe, just maybe, u seem to have lost me. but nevermind, everything takes time right? i was slowly trying to gain back my trust towards u. believe me, i really do. but well, it seems like i have to start back to square one. but its fine with me if its fine with u. although i had fun at work, i did think abt u and i wonder if u do too. now as im typing out this entry, i just feel like calling u up but im afraid. afraid of what? i dont even know. but i dont wana disturb u slping(which im sure u are; slping soundly like a baby.) and i was thinking, if u picked up my call, what should i talk to u abt. maybe in the past i can talk to u abt anything and everything. but now, im quite uncertain. but u know me, i will always try my best to hide my sorrows. definitely i will try and start by talking crap. heh! hey! dont worry abt me. im happy if u are. do know that im always here if u need me. i'll try my very hardest to help u through. i hope u're doing fine out there. and when we meet up, dont worry. nothing looks awkward when im around. i guess thats all that is needed to be said. i hope we'll meet up soon coz i do miss u. and although things happened, i have always loved u.

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

first day of stewarding.

2010-04-17T02:15:00.003+08:00

i just had to blog abt this.

yesterday i was supposed to meet my friend at 3:30pm for work. my friend insisted that DIEDIE i have to be at the meeting point BY 3:30pm. at 2:45pm, i could have board the bus and later took a train but i called up my friend asking for her opinion whether i should take a cab. GUESS WHAT? work was at 4pm and she reached the meeting point at 3:55pm. while waiting for her, someone called me up and i decided to not attend work today but i told someone that if im not attending work, my friend ALSO CANNOT ATTEND WORK coz i've been waiting for her but then too bad, my friend wanted to work. so i couldnt meet up with someone. so yeah.

and the day goes by with me and my friend having our teatime at 5pm and started work at 6pm. bnyk punye nk start kul 4! oh, my uniform is in S size while hers is M. i think i got the S size bcoz i look like a girl while she doesnt! WAHAHAHA!

work was easy but having to stand all the way till 1am sucks pretty badly that my leg is aching now as im typing this out. oh, one of the guy already have a few 'wife' at work and wana make me his 'wife' also. hahaha. that explains how i got a free lollipop frm him. too bad my friend couldnt get any. oh oh, i dont know why but PEOPLE CLAIMED ME AS A BUTCH! so when one of the guy asked my friend whether im her girlfriend, my friend said, 'dier ni pon butch la.' that guy had a really good look at me from top to bottom! HAHAHA! funny! GET WHAT I MEAN? i guess by now some already know what i am. so yeah. being called a butch is ALREADY NOTHING. so yeah.

here comes the part where we all ended work..
my friend talked to two of her friends while i was sitting down few centimetres away from them, by the curb, while a butch and one girl was in the van. THE BUTCH WINKED AT ME! HAHAHAHAHA! then my friend came over to me and talked to me and i told her abt what happened and she was like saying, 'u're the same species as me!' to me. then nevermind. the girl wanted to smoke so she sat beside me and the butch was squatting infront of her. u all know right, when u look straight, u can actually see what is at ur side. in mly, they call it mata kasar/halus(either or). and i could actually see the butch looking at me. thats the reason why the girl pushed the butch down and asked her, 'da kenape?' HAHAHA! i told my friend abt it and my friend looked at the butch. HEH!

then then. the two guys and the butch board the van thinking that they're going hm by that bcoz the van is heading west side. the girl had to go separate ways bcoz she stays at AMK. when my friend wana board the van, they said BP will board the lorry. so i went into the van without my friend. the seating arrangement was like, the two guys occupying the back seat, the butch seating at the second last seat and i was sitting infront of the butch.

as what i can rmbr..
Butch: tinggal mane?
Me: Jrg.
Butch: mataer tak naek?
Me: tu bkn mataer la. kwn.
Butch: takde mataer?
Me: takde.
then the girl came over and talkedtalked to the butch. i wasnt in any way interested to know their conversation and looked at the other side. in my mind, haizz. keje ngan butch jek, fikir mataer. imagine if i worked with BF, itu pon mesti org fikir mataer. haha. then the girl asked the butch for a kiss, blablabla and then walked off.
Butch: k-siow kan dier?
Me: *just smile* in my mind, confirm pompan ni insecure psl ader aku.
Butch: jgn fikir dier tu mataer k. kiter kwn jek.
Me: hmmm.
Butch: takde org duduk sebelah kan? nk duduk sebelah bole?
Me: *sat inside*
Butch: *da duduk* serious okay?
Me: hmmm.
then got to know the van only go to Jrg. so the two guys and the butch had to leave. pompan tu peh la happy.
Butch: alamak! phone number.
Me: *muker selambe*
Butch: can u take down my number? my hp dlm beg.
Me: *pass her my hp*
Butch: *typed in her number*
before she could typed her name out, the girl came over and asked the butch not to menggatal and asked me to delete it.
Butch: *whisper* msg i tau.
Me: hmmm.

when the girl board the big lorry, she had a smile on her face although the butch is taking the small lorry. maybe bcoz im not with the butch. a min later, the butch came to my window and asked me to text her. i just nod. and then when my van was going to leave, the butch looked at me and asked me to text her. i beep my friend up and told her abt it. HAHAHA!

to end it all, KECOH KAPE! i mean, when im with the guy, ppl thought im his gf. then with kakak and adeq also the same. now, with my friend also the same. when that is not enough, with my friend pon, a butch, ppl thought im her gf. but one thing ar. when i go out with my guy friend, he will eventually tell me that there are butches looking out at me. NOW TELL ME, AM I SUITABLE TO A BUTCH'S GF? PELIK SIOL! aku ni bkn la sepompan mane kan. haiyo! stress!

anw, im going Zoo later with Mr Policeman, Miss Accountant and Kakak Saman. but seriously, we have to be at Zoo by 1030am. haiyo! timecheck: 03:01. haizz. i wonder if i can slp. but seriously, its such a funny day today.

update!

2010-04-16T13:17:00.005+08:00

so here i am after quite sometime. heh! i was too busy or too lazy to update. hahaha. therefore i present to u Eerah for helping me update my blog abt whats going on in her life. lambat laun ader jek org akan igt me and her gfbf. haha. da la we received that title ALOT due to FB. ni, with her updating my blog, confirm lagi bnyk comment received. but i dont care. so yeah.

anw, im going to work later after abt a month since i quit my previous job. im gonna work my ass out for 2mths coz i made a deal with a friend to clear my debts in 2mths' time. so yeah. im damn glad i've already settled the minor debts, those below 50bucks. =D u know, if im able to clear my debts in the 2mth period(which i very confidently think i will coz ITS A DEAL), i swear im gonna curse MY debtors. i mean, its been YEARS and they cant pay me a thing while i could in just 2mths. but that shall wait. i have to prove myself first.

actually i should get myself to shower now but since im a lil too kind today, im updating it. haha, i know some of u readers want me to update this dusty blog right? haha. and im sure there are ppl missing me coz i've been missing for awhile now. haha. so i guess u guys have to keep on missing me coz i'll be missing again. HAHA!

anw, im stopping myself frm playing soccer for the time being coz i kept getting new injuries every wk. it sucks to walk with a limp EVERYTIME. and im currently not feeling well but i still wana head down to work. i mean, if i can go out and spend time with friends, i BETTER head for work. at least i can earn some cash and clear my debts FAST! =) oh, maybe tmr or Sun im heading to the ZOO with three friends. whats great abt the ZOO? i dont even know but two of my friends are very eager to go there. maybe to reunite with their species! WAHAHAHA.

take care readers. and for friends whom havent seen me for awhile now, keep on missing me yaw(u know, if u miss someone, u have to do something abt it. so if u miss me, take the initiative). peace outz.

2010-04-15T02:10:00.005+08:00

hey there ......

i wake up from sleep straight pergi mandi ... after that i meet up my kawan and we go makan ...

kk properly update ...

today i met up my darling at queensway just after her physiotherapy ... she end her physiotherapy at around 530 pm .. its like for 2 hours plus i have been waiting for her all alone just by myself ?? waduh sadness la sei saye .. haha !! ..

firstly i went to west mall all alone and serious shit i am like .. im totally super duper blur .. dont even know where to go .. and SPORTSLINK !!!! thats my first sight .. the first think i went in i look for the nike ankle guard ... heh ! wanted to get myself one .. but i damn broke la .. i dont even have any single cents with me .. i dont even get my pay for this month .. sadness !! hmm looking at my watch ... ding dong, already strike 4pm .. hah ! i heading to queesway now to meet up with my darling ..

at 420 pm, next stop queenstown .. haha .. i aligthing at queenstown and i transfer bus to queensway .. and most importantly i did listen to mp3 all the while okay when im travelling here and there ... what a bore day travelling here and there without listening to music right ... ok now i have reach the station, after i alighting, i was super stun ... cant imagine im all alone ... hahas ... okok i stop my imagination ... back to the story ... while i on my way walking to queensway shopping centre ... i bump into my angel .. know what ? its been a long time since i saw my angle ... its been 4 months since we last seen .. eh ? haah .. anw you guys must be wondering who's im calling angel right ? his my guy friend .. my sis and i start to call him angle since the last 2 years ?? know why ?? haha .. i guess you guys no need to know .. ayte back to the stories guy's ... hey i guess i have been talking alot right .. can i like make the story short ... okay ?? hmm i met up my darling at around 6pm just outside the mac .. we then straight to the jersey shop ... we making jersey for our team ... your team ?? yes our soccer team .... ((; .. hehe .. after that we heading to bukit batok .... we meet up our friends there .......

okay .. im done ... im super tire here ... thanks for those who willing to read my blog ...

and for your info this not the owner who wrote this down .. im a friend of her who wrote it down, it all about me ... haha ... nothing better to do ... i try post it at her blog ... kk thats all from me ....

loves ...

naera nasha

here we go again.

2010-03-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

so.. bon voyage to a friend who went overseas over the weekend to forget her former girlfriend. i came down to the club just for moral support and it was her 23rd bday. or else, u wouldnt see me there. and yeah, it was fucked up, totally fucked up. everyone with attitude problem. i was the one sane or sober person down there although i drank a drink too much.

anw, what i noticed is that the guy is starting to talk like the way i do. hmmm. and when i talked to him abt girls, he goes BLABLABLA. damnit!

oh, browsing through pics, a friend NOW looks skinnier. see, told u we're sisbros. when im average, u do. when ppl said im losing weight, u do too. the only difference is, u got a gf! thats all. other than that, everything's the same.

love love love.

2010-03-27T19:30:00.006+08:00

I THOUGHT WRONG! haiyo! stress! HAHA!

but whatever it is, can u believe it that since Wednesday till yesterday, i only forked out 50cents when i travelled here and there? lucky me! oh well, i guess they're trying to feed me so i gain weight. but u know, it sucks when they're of a different gender! HAHA! what i know is, i dont wana lose them both.

anw, M Team is back! haha. we always have our season of meeting up. heh!

actually.. there's plenty of stuff that i can share but i think its better if i just keep my mouth shut. i guess starting from today onwards, whatever related to THEM, i'll just keep it between us. so yeah! dear God, its not the right time.

video.

2010-03-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

ALFIERI!

2010-03-12T19:01:00.009+08:00

yesterday was the 11TH! and since its the 11th, i accompanied a friend at her workplace since she requested so. so yeah. there i was, accompanying her. we bought ice-cream and she was talking to her colleague and guess what? with a blue ice-cream spoon in my mouth, i saw THAT GIRL! my body suddenly became weak. i wanted to introduce my friend to THAT GIRL but my friend was still busy talking to her colleague. when THAT GIRL went off already, i told my friend i saw THAT GIRL and she asked me why i didnt tell her. like wth. frm then onwards, my body became weak for a lil while and THAT GIRL became the topic for the night UNTIL my friend followed me to meet my kwn2 lepak. so yeah.

SHE'S HOTHOTHEAT BABY! but i was sad of course coz there wasnt any handshake or hugs or kisses. hmmm. oh well. but seriously, of all the DATES in the mth, why must it be 11? da gitu takpe, of all ppl, why must i saw THAT GIRL when im with this girl on the 11th whereby 11 is mine plus THAT GIRL and this girl anniv. OH FATE!

i lepak-ed till 2plus am and with me switching my hp to the silent mode during lepak time and wanting to set the alarm clock but forgot to do so bcoz my guy friend called me up, i ended up not going to work today. so yeah. BAPAK AKU NYE COMPANY PE! anw, im feeling rejoice now for the fact that im quitting at the end of the mth. =)

oh ya. my friend also saw her used to be love/crush of her life yesterday while on her way to work with her friend. hah! bagus la tu.

i guess i got to go now. meeting BF at 8pm at CCK and im still here blogging and not yet taken my shower. hahaha. anw, happy anniv BF! te quiero! oh, new update! not meeting BF coz she lost her ez-link but still, im going out. meeting my close guy friend. hah! confirm CING but whatever it is, i made my own curfew of going hm by midnight. hahaha! baek pe! OH OH, I LOVE KAKAK NINI!

fuck it! cool it!

2010-03-09T15:48:00.005+08:00

i just got back hm. work have been HELL AS EVER! just the first day itself i felt like im in hell. at least my house isnt that bad. and yes, the worst time to ever meet me is after i end work. not that anyone ever met me straight after i clocked out from work but a friend wana fetch me but seriously, its better if u dont coz thats the moment where im damn mad and furious. take earllier on as an example, i was cycling HAPPILY on the way back hm to this narrow pavement and there was these two FUCKING AUNTY blocking my way. like hello! there's one of me and two of u and u think im gonna give way huh? so i just went pass them and my handle hit one of them and she was like, 'ooooouuuccchh!'. i turned and looked at her and gave a wicked smile. u know, im starting to hate Chinese just bcoz of these Mainland China ppl(and Malaysian Chinese speaking Mandarin at work). but the thought of chinese gfs and bfs made me think that a minority of the Chinese ppl are GREAT! oh ya. u know, those old haggards at work have been talking abt me in MANDARIN and they didnt know that i can actually understand whatever they are saying. like PLEASE! IM HALF CHINESE. dont believe me, go ask my chinese gfs and bfs. earlier on, one of them was saying to another abt me talking back to one of their staff. i know myself better. if u treat me right, i'll treat u good. anw, why should i even bother? im quitting soon! woohoo! and when i pass back my uniform, im gonna talk to that woman in Mandarin just to show her that i know what they have been saying.

im super glad that i asked that woman if i wana resign, when is the notice date that i have to give. i just cant wait to get out of that pesthole. their breath stinks, worse than a dog. my biggest mistake ever was to work there but i HAD TO; just bcoz of a deal. but seriously, never am i going back there again. i wouldnt wana shop there too. thank God that i can be TOTALLY ANTI-SOCIAL.

lets talk abt last Saturday. i brought baby along. due to the fact that baby is still underage and we saw a police car and i was afraid there would be a raid, we walked around and i saw one of my former colleague of Swensens. she was one of the kaki gerek! and yeah, plenty resigned already. she broke up already and she couldnt believe that im single. like wth! HAHAHA! u know i know la. baby pon da know. ssssshhh! hidden secret! hahaha. anw, the next day where i had to work morning shift but i didnt turn up due to tiredness, that friend beep me up and said she miss the times whereby me, her and one of our assistant manager always trying to look at those pretty ladies having their meal. AND THERE WAS ONE TIME WHERE THE PRETTY LADY THAT THEY WERE OBSERVING WAS A CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE and they got jealous when i got ehemehem. funny! hahaha. but the best thing that happened btwn me and my former colleague was we both looking out for each other and eating the finger food before sending to customers. haha, setan katekan!

this current job that im holding, i am so not looking forward to work everyday but when it comes to Swensens, although i may say that im lazy to work, at least i still came and chill with them. woo!

i guess i typed too much already. but that actually shows how much i HATE MY CURRENT JOB. OH OH, i wanted to write down this entry bcoz i WAS SUPER ECSTATIC that im quitting soon. ANDAND bcoz tomorrow is my OFF day! oh oh, when im working, there's just too much plan. like last wk, i didnt head down to a chalet then chi gf said tomorrow, there's a post party just bcoz i didnt attend and post party is frm 11pm-4am. then Thursday, BF and friends going club. BF gonna be a pimp! haha. then Fri, V asked to go club. then Sat and Sun, that one, only i know! haha. like REALLY ALOT! but then, im working morning shift frm Thursday till end of the wk. haizz. oh, apart frm those i mentioned, there's someone who really want/need me like everyday. haha!

okayokay. gotta go and eat now. mkn chocs jek beb! haizz. then im gonna pack my stuff, take a shower and go riding. now when im thinking abt it, should i even pack my clothes? i mean, my hp have been silent all the while. no news frm that person but im afraid of last min calls. u know me. haha. and my clothes is already IN THE DRAWER, right? should i even bring anymore? hmmm.

* gay partner is already single. member swine coming up? haizz. what a life.

haizz.

2010-03-06T15:14:00.003+08:00

its been a very saddening week for almost every close friend of mine. its like everyday i either had to stay calm when everything is going bad or cry silently in a corner. so yeah.

work sucks big time. my fingernails are ugly! IT IS SO NOT ME! i do take care of my fingernails okay.

im trying to work things out with bestfriend, slowly.

oh, i guess V and Wani are feeling2 single at the moment coz anytime soon, they're gonna be SUPER AVAILABLE! hahaha! so i guess we'll be back to singlehood. Me, V, Wani, Lan, Sara, Netty, Kho.

oh ya, i felt super low when the one who knew only a quarter of my life would instantly know if im feeling bored but the one whose closest to me, like seriously damn close, didnt even notice that. oh well, i guess thats life right? well, i better get going now. someone wana use this lappy. of course its not mine. its my off day today. finally a day free from hell! =)

take care readers.

fuck it!

2010-02-28T16:53:00.004+08:00

i think God is crying for me. Jurong is raining at the moment.

after one problem, another problem arises which ended me up feeling all lazy to do anything. that is why i rather stay home, cooped up in my room but that also is not helping me any further especially when u have one BIG FUCKING IRRITATING BROTHER WHO IS DAMN STUPID!

and whenever Alfieza is feeling all stressed up, she would roam around aimlessly but how can she when its pouring? FUCK IT! just when she's about to start a new life starting tomorrow, everything is falling into pieces and yet again, she's back to square one. damn it! cant anyone like share her happiness when STARTING TMR, O1MARCH2010, A REVOLUTION IS GONNA HAPPEN TO HER LIFE?

oh, i just received a msg. close friend is gonna come and rescue me away. he knew a quarter of my life already and im glad that when in times like this, he's here. although he cant change any of the situation, at least im glad to know that there is still someone here PHYSICALLY by my side. and although i was kinda ashamed to meet his family members yesterday for supper bcoz we are just friends and what would his family members think, i just joined him upon his request and im glad i did. it was laghterlaughterlaughter all the way until the moment i reached home, back into my room and thoughts were still wondering abt the problems.

how do one define bestfriend? ever wonder of that?

ps: i was tearing while sitting at the back as the pillion thinking abt the both of u, among the two closest ppl in my life.

elmo, nana. jack.

2010-02-28T15:39:00.001+08:00

this is for you...

rmbr that day, that phone call in the bus? u know i already da sakit hati. next day, not only one but two. good thing it wasnt three. u know, she called me up yesterday not knowing that i already know the truth. sesungguhnye i didnt have the mood for anything. i love u bestfriend, i really do. looking back at the pic of the two of u just broke me down. i dont even care what she wana do or who she wana hang around with. its her life that she's living. i need to start back from square one in trusting u but hey, dont worry. whenever we meet up, im still gonna be bright and chirpy. she doesnt know that i knew abt this, does she? its better if she doesnt. i wana see how far she can keep it from me. so yeah, take care.

lots of love,
alfieza hyperqid

recap.

2010-02-22T02:51:00.011+08:00

oh, i was chatting with Wani on MSN the other day. i was bored being left alone and decided to take pics while webcam-ing with her. above are few of the pics. =)

and im currently talking to Wani on the phn. she's chatting with Wani on MSN. Wani is asking what we both are currently doing and i asked Wani to just write MRT. Wani believed la seh. i mean, Wani thought that Wani and me are working for the train service. HAHAHA! padahal MRT bermaksud Makan, Rehat, Tdo! haha! confusing kan when there's Wani here and Wani there. its irritating when u have plenty of friends by the same name. haha!

anw, my 3 piglets are back! *smiles widely*

and u know what? last week was a week whereby i got complimented for having a great hair and a cute face but apart from all that, it was actually a week whereby i remained my composure despite having to know some stuff that really hurts.

i guess thats it for now. till next time, take care readers.

i know where i stand.

2010-02-08T02:32:00.009+08:00

im not feeling great at the moment and that is why i decided to write out an entry to kill time. i need to wake a friend up at 0730, be out from home by 0900 to have breakfast with my friend and i have to be at Tampines by noon. and lets just say that i am so not getting any sleep tonight or maybe just an hour or two of rest. oh well, what can i say. lots of things are going through my mind. i dont even know where to begin but what i know is; i know where i stand.

anw, im proud that the man beside me (pic below) is carving out a name for himself. im proud that from being a poor chap few years back, he became someone rich through hardwork.

oh, my wallpaper on my cell is this(pic below). when mum first saw this, she said that the person is handsome. when i told her it was me, she said that i was handsome. HAHA! not only that. when i showed it to two gay friend, one said that im actually kinda cute(gee. thanks.) while another said i would be handsome if i were to have straight hair.

btw, how do one define bestfriend? who are ur bestfriend? ever wonder of that?

a yr have gone pass.

2010-02-03T14:19:00.012+08:00

its been a year now. some entered and some left my life. whatever stuff they ever did for me, be it good or bad, i can remember it clearly. a late friend once said, 'u dont need pics to remember someone, all u need is ur memory.' upon heeding his advice, i deleted pics when i was fed up but now, somehow i regretted doing so but still, i can remember QUITE ALOT of memories.

its so ironic when i said i didnt wana make new friends but two days later, i made friends. ish! whatever it is, God have bless me with good company these few days.

sometimes in life, things dont turn up the way u wanted it to and sometimes u can just lie to others but u know very well u cant lie to urself. sometimes i wish the heart would follow what the mind wants and not take the lead and sometimes u just have to bear with all the shits that ur friend did coz they, in one way or another, have been a very dear friend. u know, in someway, im a very introvert person. so yeah.

on another note, i miss a friend very much. i miss u too bad. when i said goodbye, u had this look on ur face and tears dwelled up in ur eyes. i said it was for the best but now i regretted my choice. im hurt to love another but too proud to ask u back. i keep thinking abt those better days. there are so many things that i wana tell u but i cant believe that u're really gone away. damn ma, i miss u so much. i wana hear ur voice. i wana feel ur touch. i wana feel ur heart beating next to mine but i know that i cant just press rewind. if i could then i would in an instant, promise that things would be so damn different, promise that i wouldnt be so distant. all i can do now is just sit and dream, reminiscing on what might have been. damn i miss ur smile. i miss the way u whispered soft words in my ear. i miss putting myself in ur shoe, feeling ur pain; every single problem shared by two. i miss every lil thing abt u.

HAHAHAHAHA, i cant believe i just shed a tear or two for the above paragraph. nvm Alfieza Hyperqid. there are better days ahead. come on, u can do it. =)

recap.

2010-01-26T18:47:00.004+08:00

just wana update my blog since i have a lil spare time. actually main reason why im updating is bcoz someone just beep me to ask me to update it. pathetic right. coz i have a tagboard! whats the use of a tagboard then? heh!

erm, can i just say that ORG MELAYU KITA TAKDE ORIGINALITY? ape sebb la kengkawan aku ni bnyk 'doh'. doh sane doh sini. doh pegi doh balek. tgk citer Bohsia jek teros nk kene ikot diorg nye perbualan? waduh! pelik tapi benar! aku bkn 'doh' okay. aku ader name! HAHAHA! sape2 terase, itu lu punye psl. gua tegor jek.

anw, lets recap abt last wk. there was a day in last wk whereby:
- i felt TOTALLY WANTED by most friends.
- i stepped on glass and could still run here and there
- i cried in silence when friends was enjoying their time. YES, IM THAT KID WHO CRY AND SCREAM IN SILENCE! SHE'LL GO SOMEWHERE QUIET AND JUST DO WHATEVER SHE NEEDED TO DO.
- my friend didnt believe me when i said his cousin is gay until 2days later he called me up and was sad abt it. his cousin is very pretty though.
- i was so 'miang' that i asked few girlfriends for kiss! hahaha.
- friends tied my hair for me coz i was complaining that my hair is getting longer. my hair grow very fast u know.
- i sent out a msg to few friends saying what i needed to say. i wasnt okay. those who knew me well enough, they asked me whether im alright and told me this and that but those titled smtg, they thought i was being sweet. HAHA!
- my bestfriend's boyfriend's bestfriend is my used to be close friend's former girlfriend. what a coincidence eh.
- I GOT KISS FROM MY GAY FRIENDS! IT WAS TOTALLY SHOCKING! coz i didnt see it coming as i didnt asked them for it.
- me and friends got screened by 7cops at the VERY FIRST MINUTE of one of my friend's bday! HAHA! a day to remember on being LEGALLY 21.
- i left a friend's house early in the morning coz everyone was slping peacefully while i was wide awake and feeling bored. IT WAS MY FIRST TIME EVER TO TAKE THE FIRST TRAIN! on that very morning itself, it was MY FIRST TIME looking at mum's face after 2/3days although i stayed home on the last few days.

i guess thats enough details right? got to go now. wana watch the chinese drama then out with daddy then back home then out again to meet my friend. hyperqid hyperqid, keje melepak jek! seeking job soon! =)

OH OH, NAK TUMPANG SHOUTOUT SIKIT! SMOLTIFECHU AND BAILEY MCM CIBAI! JAN JI PUNYE JANJI, TAKDE SATU SEN PON YG MASOK. MANE BEB? AKU NYE SUSAH MANE KORG NK PAHAM? KORG NYE SUSAH, AKU JUGAK YG BAEK HATI! slamat la aku kenal korg zaman kegemilangan, atau tak, aku report kat mak aku! hahaha. Bailey, u know i know. =)

crap.

2010-01-18T11:37:00.010+08:00

i got nothing better to do and thats why im posting this entry.

i hate the fact that when i tried to get an early slp, my mind would be distracted and i'll be doing other things like watching some videos and after those videos, i'll still twist and turn trying to find the right position to sleep and when that does not help, i'll just shut my eyes and pretend as if im aslp but when i FINALLY was able to get into the deep slping sensation, it irritates me when i kept waking up OR woke up and feeling lost!

so there i go, clocking out frm work at 6:45am when dad had left to work. my plan for today needed me to wake up as early as 8 in the morning and start a revolution(haha) but all thanks to the spoilt fridge and i just went to bed straight aftr work.

IB woke me up at 10plus in the morning just bcoz the fridge man came. u know, he's the electronic guy while im the accountant BUT he CANT repair any appliances. furthermore, it have always been me and BB repairing stuff UNTIL one day when we gave up repairing household thingy due to some reason. we made a pact to dad saying that we'll only repair our own stuff. selfish? nope. if only u know the reason. heh! anw, talked to IB for awhile and get back to bed. but when i did that, i kept hearing dad's voices telling me to check out the fridge like the way he instructed me to and since the job was easy, i went out. i swear my face was bacen with singlet and boxer and IB said my eyes steam. haha. u know, IB's a male. however, he told me to ask the guy abt the fridge when repairing stuff is a man's thing. hmmm. oh, although i didnt learn anything abt electrical/electronic, i THINK i have that natural talent of repairing stuff and i came to that conclusion BCOZ when i was a kid, when other kids wanted to become a doctor/lawyer, those prestigious job title, wana know what i wanted to do? i wanted to repair cars and be a mechanic! hahaha! i know, so unambitious, right? oh wells. just fyi, during my younger days, there was this one show called Spanar Jaya and i NEVER miss one episode at all okay! HAHAHA!

by now, i realised that im totally easy going as in, im living life just thinking abt today and not thinking abt tmr, abt in times of emergency kinda thing. i guess MANY would agree on that. im still feeling like a big fuck, feeling2 rich. heh! so i guess i should join a friend wanting to earn fast cash. she's Chinese so she use the joss stick/number in a box thingy, while if i were to join, i'll be like 'nenek, cucu mintak number nek.' haha. and my friend suggested of opening a group on Facebook called 'I love Allah but i drink!' and we were kinda wondering how many ppl would join that group. okay, i know. ini part, dier perangai SWINE abis!

oh, im supposed to head to bed aftr the fridge man left but like the way most know me, I CANT SLEEP AFTER IM AWAKE! so yeah. and now i feel like im writing up crap. heh! nvm, se-crappy2 aku ni, aku takde la crap mcm satu kawan aku ni who after riding with friends and was too lethargic at 2/3plus am, imagined abt a bike which was waaaay out of the ordinary. bayang kan - motor, tayar depan tayar kereta Tamiya tayar blakan pakai tayar bas, lampu depan pakai lampu kelap-kelip lampu blakang pakai headlight stadium, seat depan seat bas yg passenger seat and seat blakan massage chair, side mirror pakai Lot 1 nye toilet mirror, rim motor pakai kipas angin, i forgot handle and horn pakai ape, box pakai bakul pasar. itu lah all the main features. kalo part brake, etc, i forgot. haha.

somehow i like the song below and also GOOD MORNING!

okay la. before i write in more crap, i'll now allow myself to 'publish post' and 'sign out'. =)

Down!

2010-01-17T17:43:00.009+08:00

just wana share this. my friend showed me a video of him and somehow it was able to make me laugh. thanks! =D

on another note, sometimes when life doesnt go ur way, all u need is a hug frm someone to show that they care. bestfriend! if u're reading this, sorry ye tak antar lu gi camp.

Hectic Wk!

2010-01-15T17:45:00.011+08:00

last wk was one of a hectic wk. below are the pics. takya lebih2. haha. and yes, NOT ENOUGH SLP!

Goodbye!

2010-01-03T17:14:00.011+08:00

a friend of mine is gonna book in later and for the fact that we didnt meet each other up frm 24Dec2009-02Jan2010 although we only lived 2 bustops away somehow make me feel shitty abt it. and yes, i know its all thanks to my laziness. but well, we'll meet up soon along with the others. with gf along. pity gf who misses her maknenek so so much and vice versa. yeahyeah, maknenek's bday coming soon! we'll try ice blast okay. =)

im sick and tired of waiting. u kept on delaying like its some kind of a huge favor. u know, when my mind is TOTALLY set on something, i'll keep asking u for it UNTIL i made up my mind to GIVE UP! so yeah. i rather ask someone who wont question much and do it for me SINCERELY. tonight? nvm, i rather watch a movie or smtg.

someone's getting engaged this coming Sunday. im still unsure whether i should attend it or not. i missed a good friend's wedding on 08Nov2009 but i've already make up to it last mth. this engagement? hmmm. 2 friends whom i shared my story abt this friend said the same thing when i told them that she's getting engaged. heh!

First Post!

2010-01-01T23:52:00.011+08:00

firstly, thanks to Wani for doing this blog for me! =) kesian member, stress psl nk buat blog gue ni. stress sgt2 biler nk sign up for blogger. hahaha. kecoh i tell u. tu la, gue nye blog private, member tak happy. nyahaha!

anw, HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!

Countdown was great. nvr came to mind that my family would go out together as a whole again. i was just thinking abt us the day before. so yeah.

so.. 31st Dec 2009 went by with me meeting my family at Dhoby to eat. soon, a pair of lovebird met us and we walked our way to Clarke Quay. sat there, took pics, got molested by the four ladies when i was playing cool with Angel. and yes, baby reminded me abt GMAX but i remembered i told her we shall go as a family in Dec but i didnt tell her which year. wahaha. but yes, i'll try my best for that! =)

we then proceeded to Memo. a friend left us to meet up with her partner leaving the five of us. the lovebirds held hands and so, the other three single ppl also kaypo2 held each other's hands and sang 'ONE TIME'.

met up members of 638 then proceeded to Marina Sq area where FTmates were.

okay, i lazy to type so much so just summary la k. after fireworks, bdk2 638 nk lepak kat 638. the others went Clarke Quay. reached there, me and baby were so hyper that we went around the whole of Clarke Quay then Boat Quay. blablabla, FTmates wanted to leave. so its back to the five of us and baby's friend, Aisyah. this time round, another couple joined us and Aisyah wanted to go home. baby accompanied her to hail a cab. later, came a bunch of guys whose a friend to my friend. so yeah.

we played 'Impersonator'. kekek! and baby didnt came back for such a long time until one of my friend and the bunch of guys decided to take their leave. so there were still the five of us but this time round, two couple and one lonely soul but the lonely soul wasnt lonely for long coz members of 541 was around and sat with us. they left soon after baby arrived.

to cut short, everyone went back hm. i was very wide awake until around 10plus am. the night before i only had abt 2hr of slp. thanks to baby for waking me up! heh! imagine my very terrible eyebags now. waduh!

oh oh, V told me he ended up at Marina Sq steps with Izzah and friends. wow!

i know i wrote that i didnt wana type alot but seriously, if i were to tell u abt all of this, it wouldnt even take u 5mins. =)

before i end, CHEERS to a new year and another chance to get it right. we will open a book and its pages are blank. we are going to put words on them. the book is called Opportunity and its very first chapter is New Year's Day. so what did i do today? sheesh! a very good starting indeed, heh!

WANI! THANKS ONCE AGAIN! ME ISH LUP U DEEPSDEEPS!
(10k mile nvr die. wahaha!)